I often wonder…am I just surviving from one day to the next?
I had a very happy childhood and always believed in 1 thing…one can get through anything with a smile. A smile can get you through anything…the heartbreaks, the pain, the loneliness.
But over the years, the way life turned out for me. It just seemed to get harder and harder to keep the belief in my one life mantra. To smile. Yet smile I do. Hoping that the others around me don’t get to know the the sadness, the fear,the constant ache in my heart. Hoping that it can fool me too in believing that I am happy. That all is well indeed. But I often wonder .. this fake, half hearted smile…does it fool the others around me? My family..my friends..my colleagues? And most importantly does it fool me?
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This is so raw. I think it is to find happiness even in the worst of times, it is said that we should never stop smiling, but that doesn’t mean that we’ll numb ourselves and just go on pretending to be happy. Instead of pretending, we should try to believe truly.
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Thank you Aushana for sharing your thoughts. I agree we shouldn’t pretend to
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Be happy but actually genuinely try to be …but sometimes it’s easier said than done. It’s a constant struggle i’d say.
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A struggle that is better than living a lie, don’t you think?
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Yes absolutely ☺️
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